I'll Carry my World

Let those who will of friendship sing,
And to its guerdon grateful be,
But I a lyric garland bring
To crown thee, O, mine enemy!

Thanks, endless thanks, to thee I owe
For that my lifelong journey through
Thine honest hate has done for me
What love perchance had failed to do.

I had not scaled such weary heights
But that I held thy scorn in fear,
And never keenest lure might match
The subtle goading of thy sneer.

Thine anger struck from me a fire
That purged all dull content away,
Our mortal strife to me has been
Unflagging spur from day to day.

And thus, while all the world may laud
The gifts of love and loyalty,
I lay my meed of gratitude
Before thy feet, mine enemy!

- Lucy Maud Montgomery

The Book of Job: The First Critique of Ideology

Quantum Constructions

The state of being two
diametrically opposed conditions
at once is a profound
volition of intuition.
Magic should be enjoyed.
How weird the world really is,
how great its chaotic action,
benign or otherwise,
the joy of the universe
racing in fundamental
unpredictability.

- Garrett Phelan, "Quantum Poetry"

When Symbolic Castration Isn't Enough

Give it Up for Poland!

Life After Symbolic Suicide

In the film, Waldowski tells Hawkeye that he has suffered a "lack of performance" with a visiting nurse and now believes he has latent homosexual tendencies. Soon after, he reveals his desire to commit suicide and seeks advice on which method to use. Hawkeye, Trapper and Duke (Tom Skerritt) suggest that he use the "black capsule" (a fictitious, fast-acting poison). At an impromptu Last Supper, Painless takes the capsule (actually a sleeping pill) and falls asleep in a coffin to the strains of "Suicide is Painless". Hawkeye then persuades Lt. Maria "Dish" Schneider (Jo Ann Pflug), a nurse who is returning to the U.S. the following day, to spend the night with Painless and cure him of his problems.

- Melancholia transformed. In the mourning I'll rise. In the mourning, I'll let you die!

On Becoming a WIlling Participant in the "Others" Desire

The Self-Castrating Figure

You’re running and ... johnny’s song
Nobody thought, oh nobody thought
What johnny thought
Nobody knows, nobody knows
What johnny knows
Only johnny knows, what I’ve done

No one is talking bout the of the ...
Until the day johnny had no clue
What I could do
If you were in my shoes, you’d do it too
If you were in my shoes, you’d do it too.

Enjoy!

This is My Rifle, and this is My Gun...

...on over-identifying with my chosen community.

Big Tools

from Wikipedia:

The title references an idea first conceived by Carl Jung and later expounded upon by Drunvalo Melchizedek concerning the possibility of reaching a state of evolution at which the body would have two more than the normal 46 total chromosomes and leave a currently disharmonious state. The premise is that humans would deviate from the current state of human DNA which contains 44 autosomes and 2 sex chromosomes. The next step of evolution would likely result in human DNA being reorganized into 46 and 2 chromosomes, according to Melchizedek.

Furthermore, the song references a wish to experience change through the "shadow"; an idea which represents the parts of one's identity that one hates, fears, and represses, this exists as a recurring theme in the work of Carl Jung.

Musical (and Social) Interludes

You Can Get Anything that You Want...

...at Alice's Restaurant